January 2009
73 posts
everytime we talk and reminisce our meeting next month, always bring my mind into movies like nothing hills, the princess diary, or even cinderella story. i know, life is not as fair as fairy tale.. and having you as a friend of mine is more than enough.
setiap kali gw nurunin tangga, kenapa selalu kebayang gw terpeleset dan jatuh menggelundung yah? ini tangga di kantor bentuknya mengerikan :|
lets pretend that you’re nobody, and lets enjoy every moment we have. coz no one knows about the future..
distraction
someone’s coming at the least expectation. hope it would be good.
currently reading...
god explained in a taxi ride, by paul arden.
thanks to nana for borrowing this book. i love it so much. seems i’m gonna re-write most of the content,
how can you have blind faith in something for which there is not a scrap of evidence?
well, the answer is you can’t.
if you could prove it, it wouldn’t be a faith.
you can only have a faith in what you don’t know.
...
“religion is a light bulb, created by man to help him to see the darkness.”
–
paul arden
another weekend..
what a rough week. i’d never been home before 11pm these days, even late. so do the last two days. stayed at nana’s house for weekend and continued to ubud. had breakfast at tutmak, visited ganesha book store, pondok pekak library, juice ja rest, and ended up at nasi padang. its not easy to attach on something called friendship, but just like any relationship, it could be good without...
coffee and me
i’m having lunch with a friend at Kopi Bali House. this place has the better coffee than starbucks. and will continue at mccafe, have appointment there. then go to nusa dua, peninsula is tempting. seems this weekend i’ll consume alot of coffee..
“menurutmu professionalisme dalam sebuah relationship itu stardard nya apa? klo...”
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me on a morning conversation
“why do people always think that a relationship has to last forever? It is good...”
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a friend of mine. and i can’t agree more.
hangover
it’s been a while since the last time i feel this pain in back of my head. and this morning, i feel it again. it was only a bottle of beer at djendelo, and continue with a glass of red wine at the next spot. a lot coversation and laugh. but no dinner. it probably caused my stomach weaker, and i get drunk easier.
but again, thanks alot to you.. conversations makes time fly faster when...
“today, your deep yearning for something challenging is coming up to the surface.”
haha. lama2 gw ketagihan sama horoscope di friendster. buka friendster cuman untuk liat horoscope nya.
“it won’t be this funny if i never see the truth behind the scene.”
– me on watching a dramatic show
dishonesty
someone never really learns on something.
never ever start a relationship with dishonesty, that’s it.
seringkali gw berfikir, betapa beruntungnya gw dikelilingi oleh temen - temen yang sama gilanya, sehingga kebersamaan dengan mereka membuat gw merasa waras, merasa normal. dan menyenangkan mengetahui, mereka menerima gw apa adanya. sepaket dengan hal yang mungkin tidak membuat mereka senang.
dan postingan kali ini memang buat mereka, di pagi yang tumben gw merasa hal ini penting untuk...
semalem nemenin sodara yang masih usia muda belia dan demenannya juga cuman shopping dan clubbing, membuat gw merasa tua saja. hahaha. trus ketemu juga dengan sodara jauh yang sudah sangat lama ga ketemu, dan ternyata sudah 4 bulanan tinggal di bali. he’s funny and so nice.
selama ini gw kemana ajah ya????
choice
ga nyadar hari ini gw menuliskan satu kalimat dua kali, satu di tumblr dan satu lagi di status facebook.
should be happy or not.
jika happiness adalah sebuah pilihan, maka benar yang dikata temen gw, just happy. lo bisa kehilangan dan menjadi sangat sedih, atau lo bisa kehilangan dan menjadi happy. sedangkan di kasus gw, gw justru mendapatkan sesuatu, instead of kehilangan sesuatu. tapi kenapa...
what a coinsidence..
i just texted a friend through messenger since we have no conversation for long time..
“it’s lil bit sad when i saw you online but u didn’t say anything, even just hi :|”
and then suddenly another window chat popped up from another friend, he said…
“sometimes i forgot to say “are you okay?”, and sometimes i even miss to say “hi”, but...
a beautiful mess
you’ve got the best of both worlds you’re the kind of girl who can take down a man, and lift him back up again. you are strong but you’re needy, humble but you’re greedy. and based on your body language, and shoddy cursive I’ve been reading your style is quite selective, though your mind is rather reckless well I guess it just suggests, that this is just what...
moving from one place to another place to meet different persons in one night makes me feel such as socialite. roppongi japanese restaurant for dinner - baker’s corner for a cup of coffee - warung mina for beer - dunkin donuts for hot tea. and sometimes i still keep saying that i’m not an easy person to attach in something called friendship.
12.30
..and i can’t sleep. i think i’m gonna take shower and have a cup of earl grey tea.
a long night
a long mid-week night. had dinner with some colleagues at japanese restaurant. continue with having a cup of hot chocolate with girlfriends at baker’s corner while had girltalks, and then went to another restaurant for beer invitation with other buddies from rotaract for next project. and promise to host my cousins when they’re on holiday tomorrow night. throw our self at kuta, maybe....
dying on a wish to learn playing guitar. this accoustic no 3’s goo goo dolls is so tempting..
how amazing internet is. i just connect to an old friend when i was at junior high school. we were coming from different city, and the latest contact is… 11 years ago!!!
having dinner at pasar kreneng. its such as at the other planet..
“memory is a good thing as long as we don’t have to deal with the past.”
– before sunset
a closed box
“ok, before i knew that you love to write, you love poem, you’d prefer a very complicated movie. then i knew that you go to party sometimes despite you enjoy for being alone and suddenly you escape from the world around you. and then i knew that you drink wine, and you’re very good barista. and these days i just knew that you cook well and it’s very delicious. is there...
do you know when will you stop at a very amusing conversation like this? its just perfect like before. simple dinner, a cup of coffee, you and me. for hours.
love and belly
i’d love to cook and make a cup of coffee for people around me. its more likely the way i share my love. as a dear friend said, love is a verb. and i try to notice everyone’s favorite and habit, how’s the coffee they like, how’s the food they’d prefer. and i believe so, love and belly are coming in a package.
sunday
i don’t wanna rush my life on sunday. woke up at 9..continue watched dvd, and cooked for lunch. enjoy every details of doing it. life is too short to be filled by appointments, doing something by ordered. thats why i don’t make any appointments nor schedule on sunday,except i reall want to..
mom called, and knowing that she was kinda worrying me is sounds cute. and sweet as well. secara gw bukan anak yang suka merengek - rengek ke ortu , ditambah ortu gw emang tipikal yang selalu percaya anaknya baek - baek aja, dan bisa mengatasi semua masalahnya. tsahh!
listen
some people couldn’t listen to other’s voice. or actually they could, but simply they don’t want to. they’re not deaf, but they close their mind and heart from listening. and keep telling them is vain.
isolated
finally i read jakarta post after weeks or months without any newspaper. now i know that war in gaza has killed 1000people, boat accident at majene, and a whale was ashored at batubelig. and obama will have inauguration dinner. don’t you think sometimes press is overrated? and people overreacted. I feel better to isolate my self from the unpleasant news. to filter and choose which one i want...
understanding
“mungkin saya sampai berada di satu pemahaman bahwa saya tidak akan bahagia dengannya. seberapapun usaha yang saya atau dia lakukan untuk hubungan ini, kami adalah dua individu yang berbeda, dan tak ada kompromi yang mampu menjembataninya.”
sometimes we need to stay out of the box, so we can have a look inside clearly. and at the end, acceptance is always come along with...
sounds of rain
after few days ago i hate rain, now i’m so thankful its rainning. a tiring night and i hope rain will make it balance. just had a very heavy and deep discussion with a friend. politics, religions, capitalism, anarchist, and destiny. realized that i’m not so into fashion and gossip. geez. am i too serious?
coffee maker
the only thing i really want for now is manual coffee maker. this columbia fresh roasted coffee just too good to be brewed as ‘tubruk’.
wouldn't you?
do you think that i’m insane? of going through this for these years ?
insanity is depend on the point of view, coz those crazy people never reveal that they’re crazy. but i can say that you’re crazy, because you can stay untill now with those distance, expectation, situation, anything but indefinitely.
if you meet someone that you care so much, who makes you convenient...
maybe all i need is something that convince me to stay.
bahagia
ternyata bahagia itu bukan hanya karena hal baik sedang menimpa kita. melainkan juga ketika hal baik itu menimpa orang - orang di sekitar kita. and i’m so happy for you, na!! so much!
someone just offered me ciggy break completed by a cup of coffee after lunch. hey, it’s still 10 am!!
putih
semoga temen kantor gw notice, klo kemeja putih yang gw pake setiap hari itu beda - beda. ada yang putih polos, dengan merek di dada, ada yang garis - garis kecil, ada yang kotak - kotak samar, ada yang putih dengan kembang - kembang transparant. secara kalau ga item, kemeja yang gw pake cuman berwarna putih. dan kemeja itu berderet di lemari gw.
some people love to stay in their illusions. their fake life. their drama. they’re looked happy, they’re looked loved, and they’re looked nice. just the look likes. when will you get tired and take off the mask? sooner or later, you will reveal the truly you.
we might as well be strangers
i don’t know your thoughts these days we’re strangers in, an empty space i don’t understand your heart it’s easier, to be apart we might as well be strangers in another town we might as well be living in another time
~keane
the lowest point of me..
I’m listening to damien rice’s and crying. let the tear drifts away..releases all the feelings..
saved
i write a message on my mobile. the voice of my head. but then i don’t know to whom should i send. noone would understand. i thought noone would understand. so then i decided to save it as draft, for my self.
pagi ini, setiap kali gw mulai mempertontonkan kegilaan gw, semakin gw pengen nangis. i need to scream out all of these voices in my head. but i just don’t know how to do that. and the madness is become my bestfriend.
drained
rain in these days drains my energy. it’s just too much to stay in the feeling of melancholia. it recalls all the memories, and most of them become pains. also the feeling of missing you. i miss you. and missing you too much is hurting me.
just like rain, too much is never good, never good.
indeed
its not easy to tell the reason why we’re crying, and it’s harder when there’s no one to blame.
under the tree
this movie is awsome. finally garin kick back the movie industry with a brilliant idea. a long wait after pasir berbisik? no wonder this movie wins alot of awards in movie festival. and i love ayu laksmi as dewi!
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